Cauliflower Retreat

There is a new place here in town that is wonderful..

Cauliflower Retreat

It is a self worth place! It has crafts for sale and self worth retreats..
I have been to a few parties and really enjoy walking in there! I encourage you all to check out the blog and facebook.
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Day 2 "Favorite Movie"

CITY OF ANGELS and SWEET NOVEMBER

I used to always fall asleep to City Of Angels. I don't think that movie ever came out of the dvd player until I moved in with Rob who is now my husband.. He doesn't allow TV in the bedroom because I never shut it off and he can't sleep with it. :( That is one thing that I have not been able to transition out of.. I still toss and turn for hours before falling asleep!

I have a fun and spunky personality, however, Charlize Theron, in Sweet November is my idol..
If you have not sat down to watch this movie, you better!

"You defy every law of nature I've ever known"

Miley Cyrus - The Climb - Official Music Video (HQ)

Day 1. Favorite song...

Miley Cyrus "The Climb"

She has an amazing voice and an inspiring message!

I relate this song so much to myself because......

I have dreams that I want and have been slowly working to fulfill, however, there are things holding me back from achieving them. I am not saying they are all bad, but the obstacles are there and eventually I will find a way to work around them to reach my goals and dreams in life :)

My dear friend Jerica is doing this... So, I am copying!

30 days of getting to know me..

day 1- Your favorite song
day 2- Your favorie movies
day 3- Your favorite TV show
day 4- Your favorite book
day 5- Your favorite quote
day 6- 20 of your fa vorite things
day 7- A photo that makes you happy
day 8- A photo that makes you angry/sad
day 9- A photo you took
day 10- A photo taken over 10 years ago of you
day 11- A photo of you recently
day 12- Something you are OCD about
day 13- Your favorite outfit
day 14- Your favorite shoes
day 15- Your dream house
day 16- A song that makes you cry
day 17- An art piece
day 18- My wedding/future wedding/ past wedding
day 19- A talent of yours
day 20- A hobby of yours
day 21- A recipe
day 22- A website
day 23- A youtube video
day 24- Where I live
day 25- Your day in great detail
day 26- Your week, in great detail
day 27- Your worst habit
day 28- Whats in my handbag/purse
day 29- Hopes, dreams and plans for 365 days
day 30- A dream for the future

Some pics..

Well...... Trying this again! Not gonna say much right now.. Just posting some pictures!

Bree and Kasen at the parade with their grandma's! They had lots of fun..

My niece Jayda Bug sleepin!

Kasen with his new Raider's hoodie! He is so proud of it..

Chance and Kasen (best buds) going down the slide at Peach Days!

Rylee Lynn and her beautiful blue eye!

Kasen!

You know one of the million things I love about my son? He is the most polite two year old I have ever met. We do not go anywhere without the comment from someone about how well his mannerism is. He always asks "please" when he wants, says "thank you" when given and "excuse me" when needed. I have truly been blessed with this sweet little boy. He has taught me more in his two years of life then I have learned in my 23 years of living. I LOVE YOU KASEN MORE THEN WORDS CAN SAY..

While on the subject of my little man, I might add this photo with the story behind it..

Kasen had been running around the house in a t-shirt and underwear all day. His daddy went outside to shovel this lovely UTAH snow. Oh boy, Kasen's favorite thing to do! He threw his boots, a vest and gloves on and was out the door quicker then I could say "get pants on" It was so darn cute Rob had to get a picture before sending him back in for more appropriate clothes for the weather!

The Perfect Equation

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Myoclonic Epilepsy Seizures

My son Kasen was diagnosed 1 year ago with Myoclonic Epilepsy. I started a group on Circle of Mom's for moms, family members or friends that know a child or someone with any seizure disorder. For them to be able to share their stories or ask questions! Join anytime, we are looking forward to meeting you and hearing what you have to say!
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A stepmothers prayer!

Lord, help me to be a good stepmother… give me the patience of a saint, the strength of an ox, and the skin of a rhinoceros. Help me to understand why her mother would rather believe her child is suffering at the hands of an evil stepmother than being loved by a kind, responsible adult who brings her happiness. Let me be content in my knowledge that children have an unlimited supply of love to give. Keep me from reminding her mother that my presence in her life does not take away the love she feels for her as she fails to understand that a child’s love multiplies and does not divide. Help me in the constant struggle to find my role in the child’s life, somewhere “below” a parent but “above” an aunt or family friend. Accordingly, help me to appropriately and accurately represent our relationship when in public. If someone calls her my child or me her mother, guide me in how I am to respond… let me know if I am overstepping my bounds by remaining silent or disowning them by correcting the assumption. Help me keep my patience, even while dropping my plans at a moment’s notice when her “real” parents are busy… and when her mother tells my husband “she is not her mother!” and “why can’t she watch her?” in the same conversation, give me the strength to keep from going over the brink of hysteria. Help me to know when and how I should discipline child without exceeding my authority or taking too passive a role. Lead me from the temptation of spoiling her in the vain hope that she will accept me and not resent my presence. If a time comes when I disagree with how she is being raised, make me keep silent and not object in spite of the fact that she lives in my home. Give me the ability to anticipate all potential problems. Make sure I am always ready with some cash in my pocket for surprise expenses and the time to drive somebody somewhere at the drop of a hat. Remind me that if I have a moment to catch my breath, I have probably forgotten something, and when I finally remember what it is, do not let me assume one of the “real” parents is taking care of it. Help me to forget that in spite of devoting the time, money, stress and energy required in raising my stepchild, I will not shop for prom dresses, be the mother of the bride or dance with the groom. Remind me that maybe, some day, the child will give me a second thought and remember something positive about me from their childhood. Let her gain something from having known me, no matter how small or insignificant, and let something, anything I did make her a better person, whether she realizes it or not.

Update..

Wow, can't believe I haven't updated my blog in awhile..

I had my baby Rylee Lynn on Dec. 4th 2009. She came into this world with a few struggles but has made it through them just fine.. She was born 4lbs 13oz and 17 1/2 in long.

Day at my parents!!

Well, while I sit and wait for baby Rylee to come out, Kasen and I went to my parents house to share their day off with them! Kasen always has so much fun with Grandma and Grandpa.. Here are some pictures of the day..

Kasen and Grandpa playing with the WordWorld learning game they bought for the grandchildren..

Kasen posing in the leaves!!

Grandpa covered Kasen with leaves! He loved it...

He always helps Grandma with her dishes (she saves the silverware for him) So, after lunch he helped her clean up..

I put him down for a nap but knew he was starting to feel sick.. After 10 minutes or so of hearing him yell for Grandpa and Tessa (their dog) I knew I'd have to go lay with him because he doesn't sleep well when he is sick. I went down, laid on the couch with him and not even a minute later he was snoring :) I love my little man so much.. Poor guy woke up really sick though!

THANKSgiving....

It is 8:32pm on Thanksgiving and I have yet to write my list of thanks....

1. I am so very thankful for my husband..

Rob -- Who has stood by my side for almost 5 years now even though I put him on a roller coaster.. How easy it would have been to give up on me through our times of struggle, yet he is still here, supporting and loving me the same as 5 years ago! He is the best husband, and father to our kids.. I love him and thank him for all he does for us..

2. I am thankful for my kids..

Jasmine -- I may not be her real mother, but I love her as if I were.. She is bright and cheerful, loves helping with everything and cares deeply for others!

Kasen -- How warm I feel inside to wake up to hearing him call my name "Mommy" and grateful I am to spend all day playing, laughing and teaching him. Tucking him in every night with a book and prayers.. He has a strong, caring heart! I love him more then anyone would know..

Rylee Lynn -- Even though she is still in my tummy (another 2 weeks) She makes me so happy!! I've loved her from the moment I heard her heart beating on the monitor and will still love her if she turns out to be a RED HEAD with freckles ;)

3. So thankful for my parents..

Dad -- For being there when he didn't have to be! He is the one person in my life that I can always count on to not let me down.. He has taught me values I hold close to my heart today and will for the rest of my life!

Mom -- Life wouldn't be life without her!! I run to her with any problems that arise, and she always comforts me with her words of wisdom! I couldn't ask for any other mother in the world..

4. Thankful for my siblings..

Tony -- He always seems to make me smile, no matter the mood I am in.. The care and love he shows for my family makes my tummy tickle in JOY! He has been through a lot in his life and he amazes me for the accomplishments he is making today :) I love him so much..

Tiffy -- Always there when I need her, to lend a helping hand.. For believing in me when no one else did.. I am lucky to have a sister to share my love and friendship with!

5. My extended family..

Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents and Cousins. My Nephew and Niece. And in-laws!

I have the best family in the world.. They are upbeat, warm and welcoming.. There is love in everyone's hearts and homes!

Oh and I almost forgot to mention the delicious food!!

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I have recovered from the nasty ole Swine Flu.. :) Yay!! So, we wondered on down to my brothers house to see my nephew Parker.. It is always so nice to see him! It is amazing to see how much he resembles Tony (my brother)..

Today I had a doctors appointment for baby Rylee.. I have lost 3 more pounds, but hey what's new?? I have been losing, not gaining for the past month and a half.. She is healthy though, and that is what matters the most :) I am to EAT more and DRINK tons!! I can't wait to see her, to hold her! To have that overwhelming joy again, right in my very arms..

Still to this day, I look at Kasen and to touch his skin amazes me to know "I created him" He is the most wonderful little boy I have ever met. He has come so far in so little amount of time! He is my hero, to go through all that he has been through and still keep his head up.. Most people say its because he is so little and don't know any different. I beg differ, anyone, any age, and size knows the struggles their body is going through. I love my little man :)

JASMINE & KASEN

TESLA & CADEN

Last weekend we took the kids to the Dinosaur Park to the Halloween Party they had.. It was fun!!

Ice Cream Man

Kasen got his first ICE CREAM from the Ice Cream Man....

We heard him and went and waved him down!! Biggest mistake ever because he stopped in front of our house and the line was never ending.. So, after we got our ice cream we still had to listen to the annoying music it plays the entire time we ate it!! But, Kasen enjoyed it so that is all that matters..

Camping fun...

My family and my cousin Carson's family went up to Doc's Flats a few weekends ago to camp for the weekend... We really had a blast, but I didn't take many pictures. :(

Here are a few...

Rob keeping the fire going....

Carson

Jace..

Kasen

Jasmine..

Jace kept throwing dirt in our tent!!!

Lovin camping..

Jayda Kate has arrived...

July 6th my only sister had her baby girl.. She was 6lb 6oz 19 1/2 inches long and was born at 3:17pm! Her name is Jayda and was blessed to have my middle name Kate :)

Late at night on July 5th, Tiffanie had went into labor. She did not wake up Chris to let him know because her contractions were not timing right. So, she stayed awake all night in pain. At about 10AM the following morning she finally woke him up and said it was time to go! As they were leaving her water BROKE.. She was dilating so fast and her contractions were back to back, the Doctor or Anesthesiologist could not keep her pain under control. I was saddened to hear her screaming in pain before I even made it to her room! She has a very high pain tolerance level, so to see her in that much pain almost killed me.. I was lucky enough to be her coach, Chris wanted full frontal view of Jayda being born! :) It was a beautiful moment, being there for my sister.. She has always been the one there for me, through all my trials and pains. Through thick and thin, no matter what was going on in her life. So, for me to be there for this, brought so much joy in my heart.. I am not sure the last time I felt this rejoiced. Thank you Tiffy for letting me be a part of one of your biggest days in your life! I am so proud of you, for all you are and all you've accomplished.. I LOVE YOU!!

Jayda is so precious! I am happy to be her Auntie.. I love you niece!

BED REST!!!

My sister Tiffanie is having a baby girl really soon so my mom and I threw her a baby shower Sunday the 7Th. It was held in one of the most beautiful parks here in town, Horsely Park. The turn out was great. I planned a few games with prizes and my mom mad the most wonderful chicken salad sandwiches and fruit trays! Yummy to my tummy.. =) It was however, a little nippy and at the end of it, it began to rain really hard.. Tiffy (that is what we call her) received a ton of cute little dresses for her summer baby. Jayda is the name they picked out.. I LOVE IT.

After the baby shower Tiffy and Chris had planned on stopping by to help Rob clean up the tree he cut down at our house.. The tree was dead and since my husband is a tree trimmer for the power company, he cut it down without a problem!

But oh boy did it ever scare the daylights out of me to see him tied up in a tree with a running chainsaw.. I am so glad I don't see him at work!!! If I did, I am pretty sure he would no longer be working there.

I had decided to run to Kent's Marketplace to get some stuff to make chili for dinner for all of us after being in the rain.. I ran into my Aunt Marie and was talking to her for a minute when a cramping pain started shooting all the way through my back and down my right leg. I had to leave quickly. I was crying all the way home in so much pain. I got inside and just fell to the ground. I thought I was literally going to die. My greatest fear of getting pregnant again was that I would go through the same if not worse pain and troubles as my last pregnancy. WELL, sure enough, I AM..

Rob took me into the ER and my white blood cell count was extremely high, so they were prepping me for surgery to remove my appendix. Right before taking me back to the OR I began to bleed. The fear radiated my entire body, knowing that if I miscarried this one I would never have the chance to have another because my doctor is doing a hysterectomy regardless I have this baby or not. I have major female problems!! So, the bleeding changed everything and they did not take me to surgery! Thank goodness.. They did an ultrasound, BABY IS STILL ALIVE.. What a relief.. Turns out the bleeding and pain is due to the 2nd sac (the blood sac) detaching itself from the uterine wall and disposing of itself. My doctor thinks I will have the same problems with my kidney's as I did the last time. I had hydronephrosis.

So, I am on strict bed rest. No lifting, very difficult with a 22 month old boy. And laying down with legs up at all times! My mother and sister have been a big help these past two weeks. Thank you both for all you do! I am lucky to have them in my life.. Also wanted to thank my husband for being so great and supportive during this time. And, my Aunt Linda, Granny, and Cousin Carson for the offer to help when they can! My family means the world to me.. I love you all :)

Wow! I am not good with promises to write in this thing... I don't think I will take up anymore challenges to do so! =(

There were a few things this past week however, that I would like to share!

On Memorial Day we went to the cemetery to visit my husbands sister Teara. She was hit by a car when she was 6 and he was 8. He always has had a rough time dealing with this still to this day because he feels it was his fault. Even though he knows he can't blame himself. Anyways, my eyes filled up with tears as we got there and my 21 month old son walks right up to Teara's head stone, sat down in front of it and rambled on. Before he got up he kissed his hand and placed it on the picture of her that is on the head stone! Kasen has never been there before, and we didn't point out the head stone. He went straight to it on his own. Now, isn't that amazing?

Yesterday, Kasen and I went up to Ogden to help Robyn volunteer at Caden and Tesla's Elementary school. It was fun but my camera died before I could get any pictures =(

After the Field Day at the Elementary school we went back to Robyn's house, made some sandwiches and headed up to the park with the kids for a picnic. It was a nice visit I had, but containing 6 kids at the park! Wow...

I had to get going because my brother asked me to take him on an errand at 2 so I left about 1:09. We were driving, Kasen and I North toward Brigham City on Wall Avenue by the Newgate Mall. I had been on the phone with my mom, she was asking me if I heard the news about what the doc told my sister Tiffy. I had glanced back at my cranky son and noticed he had taken off the top part of his seat belt. I was mad and scared at the same time, I yelled "Kasen, darn it. Mom, I gotta go Kasen took off his seatbe--- Shit, I wrecked" I dropped the phone, watched as Kasen flung forward from his car seat and hit the back of the passenger seat with his head. I looked forward again and the car was gone. So I drove out of the intersection and pulled into Master Muffler and checked on Kasen. Luckily he still had the bottom part of his seat belt on so his butt remained in the seat. I called 911. EMT checked Kasen out, said he'd be okay. They gave him a cute teddy. The other lady had also pulled out of the intersection just in the other direction that is why I didn't see her. They ended up citing me for the wreck because even though it was my green light I could not pin point the exact vehicle from quarter mile away! Therefore I was distracted.. Um?? Yes I was distracted, my child was taking his seat belt off.. Any who, the real shock and effect of all this didn't hit until bedtime. I laid there thinking about how lucky we were. I cried knowing that Kasen was in a dangerous situation. And I replayed the the whole thing over and over again. I had a rough night sleeping!